" Relax and drink. We have a lot to chat"

  Instinctively my hand moved and I drank the liquid.

  It was strangely bitter but sweet.

  The bartender filled my glass again.

  " So Charles, how are you?" The streetlight asked.

  "I.. I don't know how to answer that question "

  " Understandable.

  If I would have been in your situation my reaction would have been the same."

  We sat in silence for a minute or two and I was able to process my thoughts in that time.

  " Say Charles, do you like streetlights?"

  I looked at the streetlight and somehow felt if I give the wrong answer I will die .

  " I am attracted to them. Since childhood I would stand below them and stare at them "

  The streetlight's face tilted again and may be it was smiling.

  " I like them too

  They shine brightly...

  Not as brightly as the suns and stars but still they shine and bring light in other's life.

  They are kind of useless when the sun is shining but they are one of the most important thing in the absence of sun."

  After saying this he looked at me and continued

  " Do you get it ? "

  I thought for a second and finally realised what he meant.

  I drank another glass of that liquid

  " But I am not a streetlight.

  The sun is always shining and when it isn't , I am not strong enough to radiate energy and bring light in other's life."

  Suddenly I heard a chuckle.

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  The streetlight beside me was laughing?

  The streetlight puts his hand on my shoulder

  " Do you know I am a god."

  I refused to believe it at first but after experiencing the things I have been experiencing, I accepted it.

  I would have passed out at that moment but strangely, may be because of the liquid I didn't.

  " It's a pleasure to meet the person who has been fucking me."

  The streetlight bursted out in laughter

  " I am not the one who is responsible for everyone's destiny.

  I am not the only god in existence. Millions of gods exist."

  What kind of absurdism is this ?

  Millions of gods?

  Again I would have passed out from this information but I didn't and just swallowed it along with the liquid.

  Strangely I was not feeling scared of him now.

  This liquid really is something.

  " So , why am I here ?" I asked drinking another cup.

  " No reason, I just thought you deserve a rest after all those loops."

  When I drank another cup , I finally realised what that liquid was doing.

  It was fixing the cracks in my sanity.

  " So, are you strong among gods ?" I asked, I don't know why, but I just asked.

  The street light's eyes were focused on the space outside and without turning his head , he replied

  " Not really.

  I wield pen instead of a sword "

  " So how do I come out of this loop I am stuck in ? I can't even count on the bucket man now" I said while drinking another glass.

  " First of all , Don't rely on Bucket man for that night .

  Bucket man is not a person.

  It is a legacy.

  And that's what happened when the creature arrived.

  An inexperienced soul got placed in bucket man's body that night, so for that night you can't count on him.

  The sun has set so it's streetlight's turn to light the world. "

  I forgot to swallow the drink in my mouth after hearing about bucket man.

  At first I totally refused him and thought he was manipulating me but after remembering how the bucket man fought against the creature, I got the proof.

  It took me a minute to adjust to this truth.

  " And why do creatures even come?" I said with a raised voice.

  " Don't believe what you see. Unfortunately I can't show you the bigger picture.

  But you will eventually know about it."

  I was not in mood to force him to talk , neither was I capable of doing it, so I asked him the next most important question.

  " Who is the Unknown "

  His head finally tilted and he looked at me in an emotion I can't explain.

  Was it terror ?

  " Don't try to dig information about it.

  You will face punishment worse than DEATH."

  For a second I was so scared that my sanity cracked again . I was lost in the luring light of the streetlight.

  But luckily, the drink healed it again.

  With a sigh I changed my question again

  " So how do I break the loop ?"

  The streetlight thought for a minute and finally answered

  " You have to learn how to use energy. There is no other way."

  With a dejected smile I responded

  " Stars sure have it nice, they light other's lives effortlessly and everyone love them.

  They have no problems."

  The streetlight placed its hand on my head.

  " Everyone adore the stars from far, no matter how bright they burn, nobody wants to get close to them.

  Even if they want to, they can't.

  They will burn and die.

  So stars are lonely and burn for eternity without someone by their side.

  Moths are attracted to streetlight and give it company till it dies.

  So if you ask me, I will prefer to be a streetlight."

  I chuckled .

  " You already are a streetlight."

  In disbelief the streetlight responded

  " I am offended."

  I apologized while laughing.

  For some reason, the stupid expression it made, made me laugh.

  I drank another cup of liquid.

  " This drink sure is good."

  " So, why is this ship revolving around that planet?" I asked half curious.

  " Oh, that's because I am the god of that planet and all the people there a streetlights."

  " Damn, that sounds absurd. I would love to go there."

  " Yeah, it's a good place but it's following earth's footsteps." The streetlight said with sorrow in his tone .

  " Earth ? What's that?"

  " Oh, it was a planet just like yours. Except it's people didn't have poweres and superheroes or creatures.

  It was a planet with which I had great expectations since it had some smart brains but unfortunately the stupids outnumbered the smarts and at the end they fought amongst themselves and destroyed themselves along with the planet.

  But still they had great mythologies and views on the universe."

  So aliens do exist.

  we had a speculation that the creatures which were coming were aliens but they could also have been humans once.

  Both of us chatted for a bit longer and finally it was time for me to leave.

  " So, how do I go ?"

  " Kill yourself."

  " Thought so."

  Suddenly he hit my back.

  " Remember I am always watching and supporting you."

  Hearing these words made me grin.

  " Thanks for everything. Let's pray after I die for real, I see you again "

  " Yeah, yeah. Show them hell now."

  Damn, that line is so embarrassing.

  After looking in the space for one last time, I cut my neck again.