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CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: Tell Me That Were Safe Now

  The

  Winter Festival – Continuous

  They

  drift toward the sound together, drawn by it like a pulse. Cain

  pauses at a drink stall tucked beneath hanging lanterns shaped like

  snow-lilies. Steam rolls thick and fragrant from copper kettles. He

  orders for both of them without asking, something local, something

  old.

  The vendor hands them two

  clay mugs, warm enough to sting through gloves.

  “Winterfire Cider,”

  Cain says, passing one to Lucille. “Spiced apple and pear, honeyed,

  a little clove and star-anise. They steep it with frostroot bark,

  keeps the cold out of your bones.”

  Lucille cups the mug with

  both hands, breathing in the scent before she drinks. It’s rich and

  sweet, the spices blooming across her tongue, heat sinking down into

  her chest like a coal. She exhales slowly, fogging the air.

  “…That’s good,” she

  murmurs.

  “Told you.” Cain grins,

  taking a long pull from his own.

  They find a place along the

  side of the main avenue where the street widens into a ceremonial

  stretch. The music is louder here, deep drums beating in layered

  rhythms meant for marching feet and racing hearts. Flutes cry above

  it, sharp and bright, weaving melodies that feel ancient, almost

  instinctive.

  The procession comes into

  view.

  At the front marches a full

  band, uniforms trimmed in winter whites and blues, brass gleaming

  under lanternlight. Drummers pound in perfect unison, their cadence

  echoing off stone and snow. Behind them come dancers, dozens of them,

  wrapped in flowing fabrics that trail like mist. They spin and leap,

  sleeves and ribbons snapping through the air, turning motion into

  illusion.

  Fire-breathers follow,

  stepping in time with the drums. They hurl arcs of flame skyward,

  brief suns blooming against the dark, heat washing over the crowd in

  rolling waves. Children gasp. Adults cheer.

  Lucille’s eyes track

  everything, wide and unblinking.

  Then the spirits appear.

  Effigies, some carried,

  some borne aloft on long poles, crafted from wood, cloth, and light.

  Winter spirits with antlered crowns and flowing veils of pale fabric

  ripple above the marchers, as if floating. Drones disguised as

  ghost-lights drift overhead, trailing translucent banners that

  shimmer and twist, making the spirits seem alive, dancing in the air.

  Figures of the gods follow.

  Maera Elune, crowned in

  evergreens and white blossoms, her effigy carried high, hands

  outstretched in blessing. Theron Veldros astride a carved stag, bow

  raised, flanked by hunters in ceremonial furs. Veidros the Whispering

  Gate looms taller than the rest, his mask split between light and

  shadow, fabric-thin veils falling like curtains of fog.

  Lystriel Harmona’s float

  glows with strings and chimes, performers playing as they move, music

  bleeding seamlessly into the rhythm of the march. And Brontar Ferux,

  heavy, iron-framed, pulled by massive draft horses, sparks flicker

  along his forge-hammer as if struck anew with every step.

  The horses themselves are

  works of art: manes braided with ribbons, armor etched and polished,

  breath steaming as they move in slow, powerful strides. Riders guide

  them with practiced ease, cloaks snapping behind them.

  The crowd comes alive.

  People cheer, sing, dance

  in place. Some toss offerings, soft wreaths, paper charms, dried

  herbs wrapped in cloth, into open baskets carried by the marchers.

  Others throw handfuls of glowing motes, bioluminescent flakes that

  drift and fade before touching the ground, meant to light the

  spirits’ path.

  Cain lifts Lucille’s mug

  slightly so she doesn’t spill as a wave of people surges forward to

  get a better look. His shoulder presses against hers, solid,

  grounding.

  Lucille swallows, her

  throat tight, not with fear, but with something vast and unfamiliar.

  She has seen gods carved in stone. Seen them invoked in drills and

  doctrine. But this, this is worship as celebration. As gratitude. As

  joy.

  Her sensitive hearing

  catches everything: the laughter, the songs, the drumbeats syncing

  with her pulse. The scent of fire and cider and pine. The warmth of

  the crowd despite the winter night.

  For a moment, she forgets

  the scars on her back. For a moment, she is not a Domitian, not a

  cadet, not something broken and reforged. She is simply here.

  The procession continues

  onward, funneling toward the heart of the city where the avenue opens

  into a vast ceremonial square, lights brighter there, music swelling,

  something larger waiting ahead.

  Lucille tightens her

  fingers around her mug, scarf warm at her throat.

  After they watch the parade

  for some time, Cain suddenly grabs Lucille’s hand. He tugs her

  along excitedly, telling her to hurry. They reenter the crowd and

  follow the street, weaving between bundled shoulders and laughing

  voices. They stop briefly at a special stall to return the clay mugs,

  the vendor flashing them a grin as Cain all but drags her away again.

  They move parallel to the parade, boots crunching over packed snow,

  and eventually catch up to the front, just in time.

  The central park opens

  before them like a bowl carved from stone and winter earth. In its

  heart rises an enormous bonfire pyre, a tower of stacked timbers and

  resin-soaked logs, easily a dozen feet tall, maybe more. It looms

  unlit, black against the snow, smelling of sap and smoke-to-come.

  People surge toward it from all sides, laughter and breath steaming

  the air. They toss down personal effigies, small carvings of wood and

  bone, scraps of cloth stitched with sigils, bundles of dried herbs,

  knucklebones tied with twine, offerings meant to burn and carry

  prayers upward.

  The crowd thickens around

  the bonfire, voices overlapping in a low, anticipatory hum. Snow

  crunches under boots. Breath fogs the air. The great pyre looms in

  the center of the park like a slumbering beast, stacked with split

  logs, resin-soaked kindling, and offerings already scattered at its

  base, small wooden sigils, braided reeds, bundles of herbs tied with

  twine, bits of carved bone.

  Lucille feels the heat of

  bodies long before there’s any fire.

  Cain slows, finally,

  weaving them to the edge of the ring where they can see without being

  swallowed. He keeps hold of her hand, thumb pressing lightly into her

  knuckles as if to remind her she’s here, she’s safe, she’s

  allowed to be part of this.

  People step forward in ones

  and twos, tossing offerings into the base of the pyre. Herbs crackle

  faintly. Bone taps wood. Cloth flutters and settles.

  Cain nudges her gently. “We

  should,” he murmurs.

  Lucille hesitates, then

  reaches into her pocket. She pulls free a small thing she carved

  herself the night before leaving the Academy: a simple wooden sigil,

  rough and imperfect, the lines cut shallow by a tired hand. No god’s

  mark. Just a knot of angles meant to mean endure.

  She steps forward, heart

  thudding, and kneels at the edge of the pyre. The heatless wood

  smells of sap and smoke-to-come. She places the sigil carefully among

  the offerings and presses her fingers to it for half a heartbeat.

  I’m still here,

  she thinks. I paid.

  She stands and backs away.

  Cain follows, offering his

  own, neater, polished, bearing a hunter’s sign worked into the

  grain. When he rejoins her, his hand finds hers again without

  looking.

  Around them, people dance.

  Some laugh. Some cry openly. Children throw soft offerings, dried

  flowers, paper charms, that vanish in sparks. Above the flames,

  drones lift, trailing ribbons of light that spiral and weave,

  mimicking spirits riding the wind.

  Cain leans closer so she

  can hear him over the noise. “You okay?”

  She nods, then shakes her

  head, then nods again. “I think so.”

  He smiles, small, real, and

  squeezes her hand.

  They stand there together,

  shoulder to shoulder, watching the fire eat the night. And for a

  little while, the world asks nothing of them but to be warm, and

  breathing, and alive.

  The music slows.

  Not stops, never stops, but

  the rhythm changes, deepens. The drums settle into something older,

  slower, a heartbeat meant to be felt in the bones rather than heard.

  The flutes thin out, giving way to low horns and chanting voices that

  ripple through the park like breath over coals.

  The procession of priests

  and priestesses reaches the base of the bonfire.

  They move with deliberate

  gravity, boots crunching on frost-dusted stone, robes layered in

  winter whites, ash greys, deep forest greens, and burnished reds.

  Sigils of the gods are stitched in thread and wire, some gleaming

  faintly in the torchlight. Each carries something different, staffs

  capped with bone and crystal, bowls of smoking incense, bundles of

  dried herbs tied with twine.

  At their center walks the

  torchbearer.

  The flame is small,

  controlled, almost humble compared to the towering pyre behind them.

  But it burns steady. Purposeful.

  The chanting grows clearer

  now, names spoken in sequence.

  Maera Elune, for life that

  endures the cold.

  Theron Veldros, for the hunt and the blood

  that feeds the land.

  Veidros, Gatekeeper, for the spirits who

  walk unseen.

  Lystriel Harmona, for song, for breath, for

  memory.

  Brontar Ferux, for steel, for labor, for the hands that

  shape the world.

  Lucille feels it settle

  into her chest like weight.

  Not fear. Not comfort.

  Recognition.

  Cain stands close beside

  her, their shoulders touching. He doesn’t speak. He doesn’t need

  to. His hand stays warm around hers, grounding her as the priests

  circle the pyre in slow, widening arcs, incense thickening the air

  with pine, resin, and something bitter she can’t name.

  One by one, the priests

  cast offerings into the bonfire’s base, herbs, bone fragments,

  carved symbols. Each lands with a soft knock, swallowed by shadow.

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  The torchbearer steps

  forward.

  The chanting stops.

  Silence stretches, taut,

  expectant, heavy enough that Lucille can hear the firewood creak as

  frost releases its grip.

  The torch is raised.

  For a heartbeat, the entire

  park seems to hold its breath.

  Then the flame touches the

  kindling.

  Fire races upward.

  Not slowly. Not cautiously.

  It roars, climbing the stacked wood in a sudden bloom of gold and

  white, sparks spiraling skyward like fleeing spirits. Heat washes

  over the crowd, sharp and immediate, chasing the cold from skin and

  stone alike.

  The people cheer, not

  wildly, but reverently. Some raise their hands. Others bow their

  heads. Children laugh. Elders murmur prayers under their breath.

  Around the bonfire, dancers

  surge forward, boots striking stone in rhythm with the drums as the

  music swells again, faster now, brighter, alive. Fabrics whirl.

  Firelight catches metal and bone and cloth, turning everything into

  motion and shadow.

  Cain exhales a quiet laugh,

  breath fogging. “Every year,” he murmurs. “Still gets me.”

  Lucille doesn’t answer

  right away. She watches the flames. Watches the sparks rise and

  vanish into the night. For just a moment, she thinks of blood in

  snow. Of fire in the dark. Of pain that burned and burned until

  something else had taken its place.

  She tightens her grip on

  Cain’s hand. The bonfire crackles. And for once, just once, the

  fire does not feel like judgment. It feels like survival.

  Cain squeezes Lucille’s

  hand harder, grounding himself. The bonfire roars now, a living

  thing, sparks spiraling up into the night like fleeing stars. Drums

  thunder in her chest. The chanting blurs into something old and heavy

  and sacred.

  He turns to her, shoulders

  tense, jaw set like he’s bracing for impact.

  “There’s somethin' I

  need to tell you,” he says, voice raised just enough to cut through

  the noise. Not shouting. Never shouting. Cain never wastes words.

  Lucille looks up at him,

  the firelight painting her face in gold and shadow. The scarf sits

  snug around her neck, tassels fluttering with each gust of heat. For

  a moment she’s afraid, truly afraid, that this is going to be

  something that changes things. That whatever fragile peace they’ve

  carved out will fracture.

  She nods anyway. “Okay.”

  Cain exhales, long and

  slow. His grip loosens, but he doesn’t let go.

  “That night,” he says,

  words tumbling now, “two weeks ago, after everything, I kept

  thinkin' about it. About you. About how every time things go wrong,

  you’re there. And how every time you scare the hell out of me, I

  don’t… I don’t want you anywhere but right next to me.”

  The fire roars behind them,

  heat washing over their backs. Drums pound like a heartbeat too fast

  to be healthy. The chanting rises, voices overlapping, the names of

  gods and spirits carried into the smoke.

  Lucille swallows. Her pulse

  hammers in her throat.

  He finally looks at her

  fully, really looks at her, eyes bright in the firelight.

  “I don’t just mean

  friends,” Cain says, barely louder than the crackle of burning

  wood. “I don’t know what I’m allowed to want. I don’t know

  what comes after the Academy, or what they’ll turn us into. But I

  know this,” He lifts their joined hands slightly, as if to prove

  it’s real. “I don’t want to face any of it without you.”

  For a moment, Lucille can’t

  breathe.

  The noise fades. The crowd

  blurs. All she can see is him, this boy who dragged her through snow

  and blood and fire, who stitched her wounds and held her hand through

  nightmares, who never once looked at her like she was lesser.

  Lucille says nothing. The

  words pile up behind her ribs, caught with her breath and her racing

  heart. She stares up at him, firelight painting her cheeks red, her

  eyes wide and shining. Too many things want to be said. None of them

  find a way out.

  Cain takes that silence the

  worst possible way.

  “Oh— I— I mean— I

  didn’t—” He laughs once, thin and panicked, dragging a hand

  through his hair. “That came out wrong. Not wrong, I just— Gods,

  Lucille, I—”

  He stops.

  Decides, abruptly, that if

  his mouth is going to betray him, then he’ll use something else.

  He squeezes her hand, once,

  tight, and leans down.

  Lucille freezes.

  Her body locks in place,

  shock flashing white-hot through her chest. Her mind scrambles to

  catch up to what is happening, to the heat of him, to how close he

  suddenly is. Her breath stalls. Her fingers curl reflexively in his

  sleeve.

  They are so close now.

  Close enough she can feel his breath, smell smoke and spice and

  winter on him and then a massive arm drops over both of their

  shoulders
.

  “There you are!” The

  voice booms through the space between them like a warhorn.

  Lucille yelps softly as

  she’s hauled sideways, her shoulder pressed into a solid, laughing

  wall of muscle. Cain is dragged the opposite direction at the exact

  same moment.

  Another voice joins in,

  loud and amused. “Knew we’d find you lurkin' near the biggest

  fire.”

  The first arm tightens

  around Cain, rough and affectionate, fingers scruffing his hair like

  he’s still twelve instead of a cadet of the Order. “Mom said

  you’d be at the festival, and we’ve been lookin' all over for

  you!”

  Cain makes a strangled

  noise. “What!?”

  Lucille blinks,

  disoriented, suddenly pinned at the side of a stranger who smells

  like winter cologne and steel. She looks up and finds herself staring

  at two Aurellius men in full, effortless command of the space they

  occupy.

  Manius Aurellius stands

  tall and broad-shouldered, his presence heavy and immovable, dark

  hair tied back neatly, his white coat trimmed in gold and deep blue.

  His eyes are sharp, assessing, the kind that have looked down

  battlefields and made decisions that killed men.

  Gallio Aurellius, just

  slightly shorter, leans in with an easy grin, silver accents catching

  the firelight as he keeps an arm draped comfortably around Lucille’s

  shoulders, as if this is the most natural thing in the world.

  Cain twists in place,

  staring at them in open disbelief. “You’re supposed to be out of

  the city,” he says. “Both of you.”

  Manius snorts. “Plans

  change.”

  Gallio’s grin widens as

  he looks between Cain and Lucille, then pointedly down at their

  still-joined hands. “Looks like we interrupted something.”

  Lucille’s face goes fully

  scarlet.

  Cain yanks his hand back

  like he’s been burned. “You-you didn’t— it wasn’t—”

  Gallio laughs, deep and

  warm, squeezing Lucille’s shoulder gently. “Relax. We’re just

  happy to finally meet the girl who’s had our baby brother smilin' like an idiot for weeks.”

  Lucille swallows hard.

  “I-I’m Lucille,” she manages, voice small but steady. “Sir.”

  Gallio chuckles. “Just

  Gallio is fine.”

  Manius inclines his head,

  more formal. “Manius.”

  Behind them, the bonfire

  roars higher, priests chanting louder as sparks spiral into the

  night. The gods watch in carved silence. The drums thunder on.

  And somewhere between

  firelight and family, between almost-kisses and ruined moments,

  Lucille realizes her heart is still racing, but for the first time,

  it’s not from fear.

  Cain and Lucille follow the

  two older Aurellius brothers through the throng of festival-goers,

  the heat of the bonfire fading behind them. The smells of roasting

  meats, sweet pastries, and spiced cider grow stronger as they near

  the market again. Manius navigates with practiced ease, weaving

  between clusters of people, while Gallio keeps a hand lightly on

  Lucille’s shoulder, guiding her as though she’s fragile, though

  she’s hardly that.

  Manius glances over his

  shoulder, catching Cain’s shocked expression. “Relax,” he says.

  “You’ll get used to us poppin' up in unexpected places.” His

  tone is teasing, but there’s an underlying firmness in his presence

  that commands attention.

  The brothers lead them to a

  small stall at the edge of the market, one that thrums with activity

  despite its modest size. Three cooks move with relentless energy,

  turning skewers, flipping meats, and ladling sauces into bowls with

  precise rhythm. Heat rises from the grills, and the smell of seared

  meat and aromatic herbs makes Lucille’s stomach tighten in

  anticipation.

  Gallio steers Cain and

  Lucille toward a nearby table, settling them down. He smiles at

  Lucille, resting a hand on the back of her chair as if ensuring she

  stays put. “Don’t move. Drinks are on me,” he says, slipping

  into the throng again with ease.

  Cain leans back in his

  chair for a moment, watching Lucille inspect the spread. She’s

  still clutching the scarf Cain bought for her, the red, white, and

  blue pattern stark against the warm hues of the firelight and lamps.

  For a second, she seems small and guarded, still cautious after weeks

  of pain and discipline, but now, seated among the Aurellius brothers,

  with the warmth and noise of the festival all around, she allows

  herself a glimmer of ease.

  Cain leans slightly toward

  Lucille, his voice low, almost lost under the hum of the market.

  “Sorry… about my brothers,” he murmurs, cheeks still pink from

  surprise and embarrassment.

  Lucille’s lips curve into

  a soft smile, her own face tinged red. “It’s okay,” she says

  quietly. “I never thought I’d actually meet them.” Her fingers

  toy with the edge of her scarf, but her gaze lingers on him.

  Cain shakes his head, a

  small laugh escaping him. “They… can be a bit crazy,” he

  admits, glancing at the two older men bustling about the market.

  Gallio returns just then,

  sliding easily into the chair across from them. In each hand, he

  carries a tall, cold drink, iced cider with a hint of spice,

  perfectly balanced for the winter festival. He sets them down with a

  flourish and grins.

  “You two look like you

  could use these,” he says, nodding toward the drinks before them.

  “And don’t mind Manius, he’s been dying to eat this for weeks.

  Hasn’t shut up about it once.”

  Lucille chuckles softly,

  the sound lost for a moment amid the bustle of the festival, but it’s

  genuine, warm. Cain shakes his head at Gallio’s exaggeration but

  can’t help smiling. The chaos, the laughter, the smell of the food,

  it’s a stark, welcome contrast to the harshness of the Academy, and

  for a moment, all the trials, all the pain, fade to the edges of

  their minds.

  Manius settles beside

  Gallio, carefully balancing a large tray between them. The aroma hits

  instantly, smoky, spiced, and rich, and Lucille inhales sharply, eyes

  widening.

  The tray is a feast:

  skewered meats, beef, pork, chicken, charred perfectly, resting atop

  deep aluminum pans filled with savory broths. One tray of meat is

  rich and robust, the other fiery and spicy. A separate tray of

  grilled vegetables glistens with herbs and oil. Next to them, a deep

  pan of stringy, molten cheese waits, begging to be poured over

  anything. And a bowl of soft, sweet rolls, warm to the touch,

  completes the spread.

  Manius exhales

  dramatically, leaning back slightly. “I’ll miss food like this,”

  he mutters, more to himself than anyone else, though there’s a hint

  of frustration in his voice.

  Gallio chuckles, waving him

  off. “It’s only temporary. You’ll be back before you know it.”

  “If only two years were

  shorter,” Manius groans, eyes lingering on the skewers as he starts

  digging in.

  Cain watches, curious.

  “Wait… what’s going on? Where are you headed?”

  Manius digs a skewer of

  spicy meat from the tray and takes a bite, chewing thoughtfully

  before answering. “Deployment. Middle East. Dad says I need more

  experience, but mostly… I’ll be handlin' the Vardengard.”

  At the name, both Cain and

  Lucille sit up straighter. Their eyes shine with barely contained

  excitement. Cadets never get to see Vardengard outside of the

  academy’s holos and broadcasts. They are living legends, massive,

  trained warbeasts with a terrifying reputation.

  Cain’s jaw drops. “You…

  you’re actually goin' to work with them? Directly?”

  Manius shrugs, picking up a

  roll to smother it in cheese before piling a few skewers on top.

  “Don’t overthink it. They’re just dogs. Well… special dogs,

  but nothin' I can’t handle.”

  Gallio snorts, setting down

  his own half-eaten skewer. “Don’t call them dogs, Manius. Not

  even close. They need more than a ‘special hand.’ They need a

  good leader. Dad knows you’ve been complacent lately, that’s why

  he’s sendin' you to the wolves.” He jabs a skewer at Manius,

  smiling but with an edge.

  Manius laughs, tossing his

  head back. “I’m not complacent. I’ll show him. Don’t worry.”

  Cain exchanges a look with

  Lucille, their eyes wide with awe. She whispers under her breath,

  almost to herself, “The Vardengard… I never thought I’d

  actually see one up close.”

  Manius shrugs again,

  oblivious to their fascination. “They’re not toys. They’re

  disciplined, intelligent, and dangerous. You treat them right,

  they’ll tear through anything for you. Treat them wrong, and

  they’ll tear you apart.”

  Gallio grins, raising his

  half-eaten skewer again. “See? You’ve got a taste of what’s

  coming, little brother. Don’t mess it up.”

  Manius just laughs,

  stuffing another bite into his mouth, the tension easing slightly

  amidst the warmth of the food and the fire of the festival streets.

  Gallio leans back, eyes

  flicking between Cain and Lucille, a broad grin spreading across his

  face. “You’ll get to see the Vardengard eventually,” he says,

  voice low but full of excitement. “Goin' down the paths you two are

  taking… soldiering? That’s a first-class ticket to meetin' 'em

  up close. And officers?” He pauses, letting the words hang. “Even

  better chances.”

  Cain’s eyes widen, a mix

  of awe and disbelief crossing his face. Lucille leans forward,

  curious, though she hides her fascination behind a measured

  expression.

  Manius, still holding a

  cleaned-off skewer, jabbed toward Cain, speaks through a mouth full

  of food. “Princes like you? You get your own Vardengard. Permanent

  escorts on deployment. Dad never goes anywhere without his two; 132 and 109.”

  Gallio chuckles, shaking

  his head. “Though you’ve got to remember, they’re starting to

  get up there in age. Been around since we were kids.”

  Manius waves the idea off,

  a tightness in his jaw betraying the thought. “The last thing I

  want to think about is old dogs waitin' to die on me. Let’s not

  dwell.” He swallows hard and changes the topic, turning his

  attention to Lucille.

  “We’ve heard,” Manius

  says, leaning back with a grin, “that you’re a fighter.”

  Gallio bursts out laughing,

  slapping the table. “Heard she beat the crap out of a Tarsian

  prince! That’s some story.”

  Manius laughs too, shaking

  his head. “I mean… a Domitian taking down a Tarsian? That’s

  worth a drink, or three!”

  Lucille’s face warms, a

  mixture of pride and embarrassment curling her lips into a small, sly

  smile. Cain squeezes her hand under the table, laughing softly,

  though still red-faced. The warmth of the fire, the food, the

  bustling festival outside, it all seems to cocoon them in a moment of

  unguarded relief, far from the walls of the Academy and the shadow of

  punishment.

  Gallio raises his skewer in

  a mock toast. “Here’s to the Domitian who doesn’t back down

  from a Tarsian prince. May the Vardengard be ready when she meets

  them.”

  Lucille snorts quietly, and

  Cain laughs, shaking his head in disbelief at how quickly this

  evening has turned into something almost… lighthearted.

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