Css was tense... Everyone paid strict attention to the learning material the instructors were teaching and reviewing this day; for one reason...

  "Guh—exams." A student uttered during the start of our lunch break.

  The dreaded 4 letter word that would dread most students. Exams period.

  "Delerona, do you want to come to my house to study?" The start of cram studying began today. Countless chatter about their pns for afterschool began. Most students of this school wouldn't skimp on studying - especially at this school-, so the study dates and study groups began to appear.

  As for me, I purposely snuck out of the chatter filled cssroom to the music room. Walking through the busy lunch break hallways, I got to the music room,

  "Oh, Teseia." Noe was here. "Are you here for the piano again?"

  "Unn." Noe knew me well enough to know I would come here. "Ano—Instructor, do you have any sheets I could practice on?" I didn't bring any of my sheets with me today, though I knew Noe would help me and take my request seriously.

  "Of course I do. I'll go get them for you Teseia." Noe left the music room as I sat down on the piano seat.

  I started pying a segment I practiced from memory... I added my own touch to the segment, from empathize and some pedal work I felt made it sound nice. I found something nice and tried repeating it again—,

  "Your here." Eh—Felis? "I'm—sorry Teseia."

  "What—,” What was she sorry for? She didn’t do anything to me that I took wrongly for. At least I couldn't think of anything with the time being here that I could think of.

  “I’m sorry for st week—after st week in gym css.” Oh—st week…

  I realized that, without knowing it at the time, I somehow naturally avoided Felis this entire week. I never meant it that way; as I snuck out of css to avoid the curious few who spoke with me or invited me to lunch or activities… and the crowd of students that quickly fill the halls. Not to mention the fact that besides a select few, I rarely interacted with the masses.

  “That—sorry.” I uttered. “Instructor Noel asked me to practice for css, so I was just busy these few days.” I was honest that I did have to take a few csses—though I kept the fact I ran here for my own entertainment to myself...

  “Ah—sorry for assuming…” Felis said. “When I asked Instructor Katlia, she told me that you had an exemption from the physical css for the time being, without expining.”

  Did Doctor Halcation's words and guidence on me really get to an exemption? And how did—err, well… I suppose Katlia thought Felis was a friend of mines, to the point that she briefly expined my situation to her.

  Felis sat next to me on the piano chair. “Though… Could you tell me what happened?” This—,

  Sigh—there was no way of talking about my condition without delving into the accident... I took a deep breath, "It—well, my condition, started a few weeks ago." I had to think of how to expin it, "Something..." Was it really right to tell her? I—no, she came here for me, so I should tell her my accident. "I suppose I can tell you." I let out a sigh of relief—telling someone else felt relieving, even if I left out the true situation.

  I expined my situation, about my—well, 'our' family car crash, my injuries and loss of memories, and what Doctor Halcation told me about my body's condition.

  "Ah—ano, sorry for being inconsiderate." Felis—she really is a good friend. "If you need help with anything, please ask me. I'll come help you."

  "Felis—thank you." She was my first friend of this life. Listening and being with her made me realize how important friends were. Qualtia and Ignation were more like close older friends, now so more uppercssmen than before, but Felis was someone I could call friend... I—it... really was lonely before...

  "Enjoy your time you two?" I turned to see Noe at the doorway. When did she get here? "Felis, you should stay for Teseia's performance. She's a great musician, so you'll enjoy listening to her performance." Eh—?

  "Sure, of course Instructor." Wah—?

  My fear of having an audience...

  "Yes—yes..."I uttered...

  "Teseia, do you want to study at the library together with my friends?" Studying...

  I had no need to study, besides... Today I had some things I needed to do. "I—sorry, I have to get back to get groceries for dinner today." I told her.

  "Okay—though... If you need anything, please ask and rely on me." I—Felis was a friend I never deserved. A friend who looked out for others. I never did anything for her, yet she came to me and tried to push herself to help me.

  ... I could never imagine myself like that... A respectable friend...

  I picked up my school bag and left.

  As I got out of the school gates, "Studying..." I doubt I would need to study - in fact I was confident I could easily top the score. Though—, "I wonder how being Css Representative would be?" I couldn't be my Css Representative due to my position and the responsibilities I had outside of school, but now I had none of what I did before. "I'll see how far I can get."

  I sat down and id my head on my desk, "Sigh." The onset of exams would stall most of the extracurricur events. Instructor Noe would transfer from music tutoring to academic tutoring for the onset of requests, and most of the extracurricur csses would be shortened - some even repced - for extended 'free study periods'.

  "Well—I guess I should practice my instrument for when normal csses pickup." I uttered whilst picking up—, "Wait... It's been a while since I've written something." Writing really did soothe my mind. Letting lose all my thoughts felt nice.

  I put my instrument case on my bed before taking my dairy I hid in my bookshelf to my desk. I took the key I hid and opened it.

  Lunar Year 933, First Half, Day 140-2

  I had a lot on my mind I tried to keep hidden today...

  I met Felis once again. I never realized how my actions appeared to her. I got too much into my own self where I did as I wanted and assumed people knew. I thought I realized such mistakes before, but I definitely didn't think things through as me now. Though I really didn't change paving my own hobbies alone.

  ... I also really wish I had someone I could hang out with... Lecia and Kaeu are too familiar, and I feel guilty inside being with them... It is a weird sense of guilt, but I still can't deal with it for now... I really was a horrible friend.

  I couldn't be there for them, I couldn't tell them the truth, and I couldn't accept them knowing me as I was now. I wanted them to know the glor I wanted them remember me; Waltsia Yesen... Was that a selfish, terrible idea? Was I ever a good person for wanting to live a peaceful life as Alicia away from the tense upper society of the Imperial Arcstera Republic?

  ... I loved being a Waltsia... The people I was with were great, but surely if involve myself and expose myself too much, I'll just be reinvited back into the high society struggles...